k im not gna continue my post abt italy....go to some other choir members' blog to see...
just went on a reading spree cuz i was bored...(and i hav a ton of hw sitting right infront of me.)... i read smth about wanting to the best on someones blog...4got who... well, it reminds me of...well....myself... it in human nature to want to be the best, in no matter what..bt how much of that is actually too much?
last night, i couldn't slp becuz i kept thinking about my bio and phy test....how i got 1 qn wrong in both test just because i remembered the wrong thing. 4 marks gone from each paper. I know i may still get an A1, or many an A2, bt deep inside, i still feel really really bad....really disappointed in myself...like how could i make this mistake?! Even in gaming, i have done it before, owned in a DOTA game, absolutely thrashed my opponents in C&C3, drove circles around people in NFS, leaving many dead in CS. But when i could not do it again, i really feel very disappointed in myself. i know it may seem ego but face it, i know what i am capable of and this is not up to my standards. Just 1 qn wrong and i lost my good night's sleep. and also because of my complaints, i got "flamed" by many. Ask yourself, how many times have you "flamed" a person for getting higher marks than u. i know i've been "flamed" many many times. ASk yourself, deep inside, you want to have those marks too. Who does not want to get high marks, who does not want to be clever, who does not want a bright future ahead? well i am not afraid to say this: I want to be the top scorer for sciences in my class I want to be famous I want to have an extremely high paying job in the future I want the best for myself and my family.
It has to be the best, or none at all.
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